On choosing to live a creative life

I want to lead a creative life, she said.

I want to be surrounded by beauty.

I want to challenge my notions of how things are and replace them with the questioning of what things could be.

It has taken me a long time to get here.

To listen to that voice I know has always been there,

but I’ve been calling it different names:

first it was acting, then it was advertising, it transitioned to branding and moved into fashion and activism.

Braiding drove me deeper into exploring that space.

Writing has always been there,

because this longing is nothing else,

but the need to express all that I have deeply repressed;

that holding on to a message that was made to be shared.

The decision has been made. A change of approach is what’s next,

and let me tell you,

it’s a lonely place,

because there’s no one left to guide my way.